Sleepless
* Yawn * ... I hate those sleepless nights ... I just do not sleep much ... not because I want nciht but rather because I can not ... Please do not ask why ... also do not know it ;-)
Maybe because I'm just confused easily ...
yesterday or before yesterday, now it has become nothing with a pizza dinner with Melissa because, unfortunately, they can understand the point, however, quite ... were quite a stress to her ex-boyfriend ... (Such a primitive asshole I've rarely seen but well ...)
At least he has collected a few slaps in the face ... Meli was at any rate with the nerve ending, it is then a friend drove home, we still agreed that they should contact me and I wait in the meantime if you feel like Steyr NEN juice has or something ... After about an hour ago, I told her then even a written Sms how she is and be given, again an hour ago ... ne response then I'm with ner Doppler bottle in the luggage to her, and actually went well my friend or acquaintance, the Doppler would have been necessary in any way more at the two * g * what that caused that they have it touched it again.
But Melissa was understandably quite resistant, I had somehow they would ignore me, was her last but absolutely not because of bad events why, and somehow I was also prepared by their emails, etc., I thought.
Today or Yesterday she was back in the cinema, although I had to work but found always enough time to sit down with them and chat a bit, but somehow wanted to start any clever conversation. My worst fears seemed to come true. The whole tugged at my command quite as you can imagine, I felt like she grabbed his arm and kissed taken. But the decorum and knowledge about the state of things were not such an attitude to ... * * Grmml
Then when we went to the car and said goodbye I gave her only the left hand and and right, a kiss on the cheek ... Melissa looked at me a little indecisive and then gave me a peck on his own initiative on the mouth. I felt like my heart beats for 2-3 was thrown off track, I said something about this because of the situation and it was all pretty weird and funny and I had better go now because otherwise Meli would not come home , just out of the ground because I was nciht sure if I would let her go again ... or whether I still could ;-)
The only thing that concerns me at the moment and thus keeps me awake is the question of whether she feels something for me and if so, what??
Whether I make me hope should resign or whether I should ... Only there is a problem, hope it can change, either in joy or in pain, depending on how it all starts ... and resign ... well, I've never been able ;-)
that in mind ... Have a nice day, shit happens, same shit ... another day ^ ^
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