Speechless
Oh my God, we are together ... Meli and I are still together actually, my lovely ... I need some more time to write down all the ... oh my god ... Together! Juchuuuuu!
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Lewis Structure For Clf2
Small Right to ...
So ... now I have pretty long and hard thought, but the headache is not improved, but the fog has cleared at least a little ...
know now I think I finally get it with the romance in coming ...
I considered how long it would please me if someone is endless romantic to me ... I can also work around so I think nciht ... nciht I know ... I'd just come from ... just stupid or say how Melinda would ... I came the puke ;-)
When I was romantic then only because I wanted to make my partner ne joy and I just exaggerating the relationship a bit ahead ... I mean ... I stand on little things such as candlelight, or in the evening comfortably cuddle or something ... but really ... Dinner for Two with roses, candlelight and Barry White on the radio, well, though, has been what Barry White * lol * ... neee ... then I would also reflect the puking ...
Well ... at least a little more clarity than was the case yesterday ^ ^
So ... now I have pretty long and hard thought, but the headache is not improved, but the fog has cleared at least a little ...
know now I think I finally get it with the romance in coming ...
I considered how long it would please me if someone is endless romantic to me ... I can also work around so I think nciht ... nciht I know ... I'd just come from ... just stupid or say how Melinda would ... I came the puke ;-)
When I was romantic then only because I wanted to make my partner ne joy and I just exaggerating the relationship a bit ahead ... I mean ... I stand on little things such as candlelight, or in the evening comfortably cuddle or something ... but really ... Dinner for Two with roses, candlelight and Barry White on the radio, well, though, has been what Barry White * lol * ... neee ... then I would also reflect the puking ...
Well ... at least a little more clarity than was the case yesterday ^ ^
Wednesday, November 9, 2005
Do Bile Salts Cause Ulcers
Double confused!
The more I talk to because Meli, or issue with it what to take, or other more sihc me wonder who I really am ...
I mean ... I no longer identify from ... Meli has made me aware of so many things that I am now ready to finally get on the track ... I think I like all or am I the way I want to make it to the others think ... * * Verwirrtbin
Am I just a "Blender" or are all my masks the real me ... 'm confused ... Headache! ... and what if she's right ... if I live only in the past for me to justify yourself ... and what about this shitty romance is ... ach manno ... the longer I'm with her the more I no longer identify themselves ... The only question that I am different when it's there or if I am I finally if it is there ...
Just as you get to know yourself when on it is not the one who is the one to believe .... sien Arghhh!!
The more I talk to because Meli, or issue with it what to take, or other more sihc me wonder who I really am ...
I mean ... I no longer identify from ... Meli has made me aware of so many things that I am now ready to finally get on the track ... I think I like all or am I the way I want to make it to the others think ... * * Verwirrtbin
Am I just a "Blender" or are all my masks the real me ... 'm confused ... Headache! ... and what if she's right ... if I live only in the past for me to justify yourself ... and what about this shitty romance is ... ach manno ... the longer I'm with her the more I no longer identify themselves ... The only question that I am different when it's there or if I am I finally if it is there ...
Just as you get to know yourself when on it is not the one who is the one to believe .... sien Arghhh!!
Tuesday, November 8, 2005
Letters To Pent House
Confused!
So ... to start times a little story ... as far as I can remember back was always claimed that I have a romantic streak that I "understand" women would ... well, it was diskuttiert even if I'm gay or not (even my grandmother was on the line involved, hang on, my grandmother was the trigger! matter ...) ... of dozens of women I was raved as romantic and sensitive I am not, and how little I use the cliché "man" but had in common and what a good friend I am not, may well, a good friend sien I probably anything but Romantic ...
My best friend has
me yesterday spoke to the conscience and asked me what was wrong with me if I want to go on forever ... if I ever so "Next whores" will ... I mean ... It is a bit crass when my best friend me as a male prostitute is, ok, I mean, lately, the women changed in my bed from fairly frequently, but that was only, no idea ... maybe he's right.
But is it any different since the Meli ... no idea ...
My romantic streak is nothing more than pure show ... I mean, what is romance? A word? A gesture? Atmosphere, perhaps? But what is real romance? ... Romance is when you do not need words to understand What does a partner ... that's romance ... what I did was just an excuse ... a justification ... to me to make it easier and to show the women that I am the right ... I'm not romantic because I am convinced, but because I can, with compliments, with gestures, with ambiance ... and those who pay attention now know that this is no real romance ... but the romance that we convince ourselves ... Romance wrong as fool's gold ...
Well, except I used the "wrong" to create more romantic to me a feeling that there was not really ... when I felt so far from someone a feeling it was only superficial or personal nature if you will ... in favor of personal satisfaction ... To the dismay of my respective partner
No more, no less ...
Well, now I'm at Meli ... after I felt the first time what it means to be disappointed and hurt to be, by Chrisi at which for the first time there was a mixture of feelings ... I now feel what it means to be alone in love with a man ... without the mask of the romantic troubles is to have a feel ...
Well, so far I have not slept with Meli almost a "prelude" enjoyed ... we just kissed and cuddled a bit, but not so ahb otherwise I simply know only learned it so well at our meetings was dependent * gg * ... and yet the feeling is just ... I do not know ... Just to be satisfied only with that is there ... sounds stupid to ... But so ... it is enough in itself somehow I feel her presence ...
I just hope that I manage not to act rashly, but, as they would like to address the whole slow, but the more time passes, the harder it is for me to do anything ... I hope they have enough patience for me ...
Somehow I come to my state of mind is not completely out of ... It seems as if I am my own feeling that I have so far reasonably have blocked ... about to kill me is to ... let's see who wins ...
So ... to start times a little story ... as far as I can remember back was always claimed that I have a romantic streak that I "understand" women would ... well, it was diskuttiert even if I'm gay or not (even my grandmother was on the line involved, hang on, my grandmother was the trigger! matter ...) ... of dozens of women I was raved as romantic and sensitive I am not, and how little I use the cliché "man" but had in common and what a good friend I am not, may well, a good friend sien I probably anything but Romantic ...
My best friend has
me yesterday spoke to the conscience and asked me what was wrong with me if I want to go on forever ... if I ever so "Next whores" will ... I mean ... It is a bit crass when my best friend me as a male prostitute is, ok, I mean, lately, the women changed in my bed from fairly frequently, but that was only, no idea ... maybe he's right.
But is it any different since the Meli ... no idea ...
My romantic streak is nothing more than pure show ... I mean, what is romance? A word? A gesture? Atmosphere, perhaps? But what is real romance? ... Romance is when you do not need words to understand What does a partner ... that's romance ... what I did was just an excuse ... a justification ... to me to make it easier and to show the women that I am the right ... I'm not romantic because I am convinced, but because I can, with compliments, with gestures, with ambiance ... and those who pay attention now know that this is no real romance ... but the romance that we convince ourselves ... Romance wrong as fool's gold ...
Well, except I used the "wrong" to create more romantic to me a feeling that there was not really ... when I felt so far from someone a feeling it was only superficial or personal nature if you will ... in favor of personal satisfaction ... To the dismay of my respective partner
No more, no less ...
Well, now I'm at Meli ... after I felt the first time what it means to be disappointed and hurt to be, by Chrisi at which for the first time there was a mixture of feelings ... I now feel what it means to be alone in love with a man ... without the mask of the romantic troubles is to have a feel ...
Well, so far I have not slept with Meli almost a "prelude" enjoyed ... we just kissed and cuddled a bit, but not so ahb otherwise I simply know only learned it so well at our meetings was dependent * gg * ... and yet the feeling is just ... I do not know ... Just to be satisfied only with that is there ... sounds stupid to ... But so ... it is enough in itself somehow I feel her presence ...
I just hope that I manage not to act rashly, but, as they would like to address the whole slow, but the more time passes, the harder it is for me to do anything ... I hope they have enough patience for me ...
Somehow I come to my state of mind is not completely out of ... It seems as if I am my own feeling that I have so far reasonably have blocked ... about to kill me is to ... let's see who wins ...
Sunday, November 6, 2005
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Sleepless
* Yawn * ... I hate those sleepless nights ... I just do not sleep much ... not because I want nciht but rather because I can not ... Please do not ask why ... also do not know it ;-)
Maybe because I'm just confused easily ...
yesterday or before yesterday, now it has become nothing with a pizza dinner with Melissa because, unfortunately, they can understand the point, however, quite ... were quite a stress to her ex-boyfriend ... (Such a primitive asshole I've rarely seen but well ...)
At least he has collected a few slaps in the face ... Meli was at any rate with the nerve ending, it is then a friend drove home, we still agreed that they should contact me and I wait in the meantime if you feel like Steyr NEN juice has or something ... After about an hour ago, I told her then even a written Sms how she is and be given, again an hour ago ... ne response then I'm with ner Doppler bottle in the luggage to her, and actually went well my friend or acquaintance, the Doppler would have been necessary in any way more at the two * g * what that caused that they have it touched it again.
But Melissa was understandably quite resistant, I had somehow they would ignore me, was her last but absolutely not because of bad events why, and somehow I was also prepared by their emails, etc., I thought.
Today or Yesterday she was back in the cinema, although I had to work but found always enough time to sit down with them and chat a bit, but somehow wanted to start any clever conversation. My worst fears seemed to come true. The whole tugged at my command quite as you can imagine, I felt like she grabbed his arm and kissed taken. But the decorum and knowledge about the state of things were not such an attitude to ... * * Grmml
Then when we went to the car and said goodbye I gave her only the left hand and and right, a kiss on the cheek ... Melissa looked at me a little indecisive and then gave me a peck on his own initiative on the mouth. I felt like my heart beats for 2-3 was thrown off track, I said something about this because of the situation and it was all pretty weird and funny and I had better go now because otherwise Meli would not come home , just out of the ground because I was nciht sure if I would let her go again ... or whether I still could ;-)
The only thing that concerns me at the moment and thus keeps me awake is the question of whether she feels something for me and if so, what??
Whether I make me hope should resign or whether I should ... Only there is a problem, hope it can change, either in joy or in pain, depending on how it all starts ... and resign ... well, I've never been able ;-)
that in mind ... Have a nice day, shit happens, same shit ... another day ^ ^
* Yawn * ... I hate those sleepless nights ... I just do not sleep much ... not because I want nciht but rather because I can not ... Please do not ask why ... also do not know it ;-)
Maybe because I'm just confused easily ...
yesterday or before yesterday, now it has become nothing with a pizza dinner with Melissa because, unfortunately, they can understand the point, however, quite ... were quite a stress to her ex-boyfriend ... (Such a primitive asshole I've rarely seen but well ...)
At least he has collected a few slaps in the face ... Meli was at any rate with the nerve ending, it is then a friend drove home, we still agreed that they should contact me and I wait in the meantime if you feel like Steyr NEN juice has or something ... After about an hour ago, I told her then even a written Sms how she is and be given, again an hour ago ... ne response then I'm with ner Doppler bottle in the luggage to her, and actually went well my friend or acquaintance, the Doppler would have been necessary in any way more at the two * g * what that caused that they have it touched it again.
But Melissa was understandably quite resistant, I had somehow they would ignore me, was her last but absolutely not because of bad events why, and somehow I was also prepared by their emails, etc., I thought.
Today or Yesterday she was back in the cinema, although I had to work but found always enough time to sit down with them and chat a bit, but somehow wanted to start any clever conversation. My worst fears seemed to come true. The whole tugged at my command quite as you can imagine, I felt like she grabbed his arm and kissed taken. But the decorum and knowledge about the state of things were not such an attitude to ... * * Grmml
Then when we went to the car and said goodbye I gave her only the left hand and and right, a kiss on the cheek ... Melissa looked at me a little indecisive and then gave me a peck on his own initiative on the mouth. I felt like my heart beats for 2-3 was thrown off track, I said something about this because of the situation and it was all pretty weird and funny and I had better go now because otherwise Meli would not come home , just out of the ground because I was nciht sure if I would let her go again ... or whether I still could ;-)
The only thing that concerns me at the moment and thus keeps me awake is the question of whether she feels something for me and if so, what??
Whether I make me hope should resign or whether I should ... Only there is a problem, hope it can change, either in joy or in pain, depending on how it all starts ... and resign ... well, I've never been able ;-)
that in mind ... Have a nice day, shit happens, same shit ... another day ^ ^
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